Friday, December 15, 2006

memories erased

this morning i was woken by a phone call from the apple doctor.
my laptop hard drive is dead.
everything i have written since it arrived almost a year ago to the day is lost. all pictures. all music. a significant proportion of my emails i have received and saved so that i could remind myself that friendships were not a figment of my imagination but the real deal. all my IM conversations i saved for revisiting cause of the good advice contained therein.
fuck. everything i have written outside of these pages.

and no aiden to tell me i should've backed up. not so funny when it's actually happening.

i wish i could say that was the worst thing about today. it wasn't, but it was more appropriately fitting to my week than i could have designed. it's just loss, loss and more loss...

LB,x

3 comments:

  1. that truly sucks, friendships are real, and the advice you will know in your heart, but it still sucks, here's to a better week starting tomorrow

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  2. Cary..I know that words mean a lot to you and these few comments can't really make up for all those you've lost - but I've always loved your writing...it challenges me...it makes me wonder about themes and thoughts that I would never think of! So...onward and upward lovey and please enjoy your Christmastime with the family! Will be thinking about you a lot. Blessings to you and take care of your wee self until I see you in the New Year xxx
    xmox

    Fill your paper with the breathings of your heart.
    William Wordsworth

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  3. cheryl11:49 am

    oh god. i bet you're still having those devastating moments where you remember something else that you only had on the computer.

    i can't begin to imagine.

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