Wednesday, May 31, 2006

the higher the tower...

today i am mostly listening to gravenhurst, this time in chronological sequence as advised...

Is it the things we cannot or will not say that hold us back the most…?
Does the creative stumbling, the pen-tiedness not so often come from resisting honesty and failing to express that which is foremost in our thoughts... what burns hardest is that which we are most reluctant to put upon the page. mouth sealed we are our own undoing...

there are so many things left unsaid... i'm rebuilding defences a storey a day and with each brick another story goes unwritten, truths untold...

LB, x

emily said the things in my head are keeping me from sleeping if I don't go to them they'll come for me instead and the company i'm keeping and this is how the damage is done climbing the stairs in the dark I won't reach out for anyone


~ gravenhurst, damage II, from flashlight seasons

6 comments:

  1. Anonymous6:16 pm

    it's good but i wonder if some of us won't reach out in the dark because for some of us there is truly nobody there

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  2. sometimes there is no choice but to...

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  3. Anonymous1:55 pm

    nice live-in-the-studio version of this at the bbc website: http://www.bbc.co.uk/dna/collective/A2799606

    try not to fixate on him looking like the love child of leonardo dicaprio and ant 'n' dec...

    the first few times i heard this track i thought he was singing "i wanna reach out - for anyone"... which can also be a bit damaging...

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  4. i think there is always a choice. maybe you don't know there is anyone there until you reach out. maybe the not-knowing is easier than the risk. maybe you reached out before and there was no-one there. maybe there is someone there now. either way i guess it's a choice. would things be worse if you found out you were right?

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  5. am not sure it's about being right or wrong but more about having the courage to step into the unkown...

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  6. harbour, this is all making me think about your 'life is suffering' post again. i think sometimes security (staying put in the dark) can seem like the best option when to risk reaching out is to risk pain. but this type of security is no security at all since it is based on the fear of that pain. in fact it is a death all of its own. to risk that reaching-out is to indeed risk pain but it is maybe the only way to potential life. maybe that's what jesus was going on about in the 'he who risks his life will save it' (or something).

    this talk has been enormously helpful to me.

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