out of your sight and into the blackness...

another difficult day in a difficult week...

but at least a good decision was made in a good conversation with keli today: i'm gonna move in with her and stu, to their new house in east belfast, where a lot of folks we know are in the vicinity - sometime in May most likely. this is a major life altering decision. but a necessary one i think. it will be my half way house for a while, to help me transition to whatever comes next.

stretches out hand...

i am broken. tired. lost. terrified.
i miss you as much as i love you.
i'd call. but all i'd do is weep.

i'm sure i've been here before. what did i do to get out?
didn't i leave some crumbs?
where did i put the map?
i'm sure it'd say,
here lie monsters...
wish you were here.
you're so good at navigation...

LB, x.